Tuesday, September 23, 2014

chirp-chirp.



It's been crickets chirping here- so hello! I've admitted to friends on multiple occasions this month: "I am doing too much stuff and at the same time, not enough." Being in clinic wears me out in a way classes didn't. (Or am I just getting older?) After a full day of seeing patients, all I want to do is PLOP on my bed facedown under a mountain of comforters.

Today I was looking at my points (for every procedure you do, you get awarded a point value associated with that treatment. You need a certain number of each procedures such as a crown, an amalgam restoration etc, but the most important thing is total number of points). I realized I was wayyy below average for our group. It made me feel very anxious, like I wasn't pulling my weight. Also over lunch with an old friend I realized I need to start thinking about the life after dental school. Residencies? Private practice? Where do I want to go? What do I want and how will I get there? To say I was overwhelmed would be an understatement. And some other things have happened in the last week which required much attention and headache... 

We only want to show our best selves to the world, don't we? Although writing posts like these make me nervous (hello Internet universe, here's my personal letter) writing calms me down. I also believe that putting up a face only makes me feel more disconnected. So that's all, sometimes you need to eat an entire bar of chocolate and spend too much money on bath bombs...

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